Tuesday, June 14, 2005

contemplating over the exam period

Alhamdulillah, the semester exam is finally over. After more than a month of leaving this blog to become enshrouded with emptiness and passiveness, here come my post. My revenge on blogging ;)

Prior to the exam, great cooperations suddenly established among our batch with everyone competing in contributing some revision notes for everyone else. From extensive pharmacology notes, MCQ answers and discussion, HP summary up to prac notes. Hopefully, this kind of cooperation will remain existed till all of us graduated from University of Melbourne.

Anyway, back to the exam. The exam lasted about more than a week which included 5 papers. On average, on scale of 1 to 10, with 10 being the hardest exam ever, I would rate this semester exam to be 7. It ranged from extremely hard to moderately hard and none were easy.

Finishing from one paper to another paper, there always be the same story that encapsulated my friends. Depression, sadness and hopelessness. Without spoken anything about it, all the emotions were clearly reflected on every face of my friends. Frustation were clearly have materialised and embodied most of our mind and behaviour. Not surprisingly, most of my friends were exalted with joy and happiness after four days of continuous examination amid there was still one more paper to go.

I, myself faced the same situation. There were periods during answering those papers that I stared blankly on those answer sheet not knowing what to write or even what to shoot with. There were times when I only saw pink cells under the microscope but not knowing what it was. Indeed I have studied quite a lot, yet it seems the questions managed to defy me. It is no longer about how much you know. It is how much you remember and how much your knowledge can be applied to clinical scenario that will determine your marks eventually.

Indeed, this semester examination clearly took its toll on all of us. No longer we could smiled of joyness after finishing one paper. No longer we could said good luck because it seems that luck have petering out on most of us. Hopeless we were.

Reflecting on those period again, I have found out something that need to be learned and remembered again and again in the future. When I was depressed, I kept returning to my blog to read the Quranic verse that I wrote on the previous post.

"If Allah helps you, none can overcome you; and if He forsakes you, who is there after Him that can help you? And in Allah (alone) let believers put their trust. " (al-Imran: 160)

So true is the verse. No matter how much you diligently worked or strived, in the end, Allah alone can determined on what we will receive. Only the help from Allah alone that can help us in facing great difficulties. Indeed, the believers should always put their trust and hope onto Allah alone and not to be despaired nor distressed by any event that have happened in their life.

Facing difficulties in answering exams, I faced and prayed to Allah dearly hoping to seek the best out of this semester exams. Truly, my faith is almost shakened by this catastrophy but alhamdulillah, after deep in contemplation....I gained pleasure out of this difficulties. When one faced with great adversity, one should always prayed on the Almighty Allah. We will never know how strong is our iman without experiencing hardship and great difficulties.Truly, life is a constant test for the believers.

Then, I read another Hadith about test and difficulties.

Sa`d reported that the Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) said,

“The most in their suffering among the people are the prophets, then the best, then the (next) best. One is afflicted in accordance with his faith. If his faith is firm, his affliction is hard, and if his faith is weak, his affliction is light. Indeed, one would be so much subjected to adversity until he walks among the people without any sins.” (Ahmad and At-Tirmidhi)

Isn't it ironic that the closer you to Allah, the greater you are being tested. A bitter fact to swallow. Not really. The gift of strongly believing in Allah is so great and valuable that only people who deserved it can enter it.The gift is the heaven and the opportunity to meet the Almighty Creator. Yet, all of those people that will enter the heaven will be on the mercy of Allah alone and not on their good deeds that they had performed previously on the temporal world.

It just made me wonder on how great is then the Prophet Muhammad SAW and his companions facing all those difficulties in their entire life. Truly, they are the best of people. They hardly gave up upon facing from one adversity to another. Instead, they remain steadfast in their strive of propagating the word of Allah.

Or do ye think that ye shall enter the Garden (of bliss) without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? they encountered suffering and adversity, and were so shaken in spirit that even the Messenger and those of faith who were with him cried: "When (will come) the help of Allah?" Ah! Verily, the help of Allah is (always) near!" (al-Baqarah: 214)

It made me wonder how strong the opposition they faced such that Allah revealed this verse. Yet they are fighting and striving in the cause of Allah for their entire life. Are we?

Read and comprehend this hadith.

“Indeed amazing are the affairs of a believer! They are all for his benefit. If he is granted ease of living he is thankful; and this is best for him. And if he is afflicted with a hardship, he perseveres; and this is best or him.” (Muslim)

Have we become such Muslims?


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