Wednesday, November 30, 2005


Don't know what have overtaken me on the past few days. the course which was supposed to make me be a passive person....suddenly i became another person. A person that I never recognised before. Asking provocative question to talking about religion in front of all facilitators and the rest of my friend....I don't know who am I now.

With daily curry menu...couldn't they changed the menu...I think I have enough curry for my next 2-3 months. With thousands of info to which I don't know the exact truth, I am flat tired in the end.

Hopefully, I can enjoy the rest of summer holiday now. No more government-oriented course now. It is time for me to pack my luggage. See u later.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005


"beruntunglah andainya kau tahu apa yang ingin dicari kerana ramai manusia yang masih tercari-cari apa yang ingin dicari"

Sunday, November 20, 2005

antara dua cinta

apa yang ada jarang disyukuri
apa yang tiada sering dirisaukan
nikmat yang dikecap baru kan terasa bila hilang
apa yang diburu timbul rasa jemu
bila sudah di dalam genggaman

dunia ibarat air laut
diminum hanya menambah haus
nafsu bagaikan fatamorgana
di padang pasir

panas yang membahang disangka air
dunia dan nafsu bagai bayang-bayang
dilihat ada ditangkap hilang

Tuhan.. leraikanlah dunia
yang mendiam di dalam hatiku
kerana di situ tidak ku mampu
mengumpul dua cinta
hanya cintaMu ku harap tumbuh
dibajai bangkai dunia yang kubunuh


antara dua cinta yang bertemu ini, manusia sering terpaku pada cinta dunia. Cinta akhirat sering ditolak ke tepi. Cinta dunia hanyalah khayalan yang indah di mata. Hakikatnya ia hanyalah bersifat sementara.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Hijjaz - Rintihan

Biar berlinangan air mata
Ku takkan hentikannya
Biarkan ia menyembuh luka
Hilanglah rasa duka

Tidak ku termampu merentasi liku-liku
Oh sungguh ku tak mampu menghadapi semua itu
Oh sungguh ku tak upaya

Jangan dibiarkan jerih perih kehidupan
Bisa meleraikan iman...
Kan hancur semuanya
Walaupun menitis air mata darah
Tak bisa merubah segalanya
Melainkan taubat nasuha
Moga kan diterima...

Namun ku percaya
Masih ada kesudahannya
Kerana Allah itu
Maha kaya maha mendengar
Rintihan hamba-hambanya
Kerana sesiapa bertaqwa kepadanya
Pasti akan ada
Jalan keluarnya
Rezeki yang tidak disangka-sangka
Cukup Allah baginya berkuasa segala-galanya
Terima seadanya

Thursday, November 17, 2005

E-mail time capsule

Ever thinking of sending an email to yourself in the future? click here

Write whatever you like and read it later in the future, if you are alive of course ;)

I have wrote an email to myself to be send in about 5 years time. In it, I put my wishes and dreams that need to be realized by that time. So, how bout you?

aurat wanita

taken from bahan tarbiyyah

Wednesday, November 16, 2005


alhamdullillah, finally managed to endure all those examination papers. This time, the exam was very hard indeed. Wonder if next semester is even harder than this.

Bracing through this exam made me realised on one aspect. No matter how hard you dilligently studied and put your utmost effort for this exam, in the end....all of those does not really matter much. The question especially the multiple choice question were very difficult to comprehend and took lots of time to read the whole sentences. The last paper though, was easy and half of my batch already left the exam hall before it was over.

Throughout the entire exam period, I put all my hope to Allah alone. I prayed and hoped for the best. When we direly need something, we always turned to the Creator. This exam clearly shows the extent of putting all of your trust to Allah and hoping for the best.

Of asking help from Allah, we ought to know our relationship with Him. How close we are throughout the year? Is it only when the time for the exam comes, we become very close to Him and outside of those period, we neglect Him? Is it only when we are faced with great difficulties that we submit humbly to Him?

For our prayers to be accepted, our relationship should very close to the Almighty Allah throughout our life. How does one measures his relationship with the Lord?

An analogy; a person would like to make an appointment with the richest man in the world, Mr Bill Gates. Which factors need to be considered for us to make a successful appointment and later meet with Bill Gates? Surely, Bill Gates will look into our biography and perhaps our personal background and perhaps how valuable the meeting would be. One major factor is how valuable we are to him?

Similarly, we should ask ourselves, how much we have done for the sake of Allah alone till this day. Check and purify our intention. Why do we study and what are the reasons we asking help from Allah?

Now, I have come to the boundary of summer holiday. Months of free time should not gone to waste. The time is precious to everyone of us. Use this time to strengthen our faith and relationship with Allah. Only the relationship with Allah alone lasts forever and only with the help from the Creator, I will be able to see the right path lies ahead of me.

Still striving to capture the true meaning of this hadith....

“Indeed amazing are the affairs of a believer! They are all for his benefit. If he is granted ease of living he is thankful; and this is best for him. And if he is afflicted with a hardship, he perseveres; and this is best or him.” (Muslim)

PBL J sem IV

front row from left: Marie, Praveen, Dr Simon (paediatrician), Lee, Antoinette, Jessica
Behind from left: me, Safa, Mun, Ming, Christopher, Anneke.

Being a member of this group for one whole semester is rather interesting. Our main discussion is not the PBL case but always and always Dr House :D

Somehow, someone among us will raised the latest issue on the House and then, all of us deviated from PBL. With Mun and Christopher who are the avid fans of the drama and followed by most of us...including the wonder our group deviated too much.