Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Leaving Melbourne

It is almost at the end of two years. The journey that starts almost 24 months ago. Now, I'm in the middle of one third of my course. Four more years to go before my journey here at Melbourne ends for good.

Tomorrow, will be leaving. Going back to hometown for summer holiday. Might not be able to update this blog till February.

Two years here surely had etched memorable memories in my mind. Bad, good...all of those are parts and parcel of this journey. Two years have taught me a lot. A lot to be remembered. A lot to be learned. A lot more to endure throughout this journey.

A verse from Quran that I would like all of us to comprehend. To take into our mind. To be held dearly close to our soul.

"For Believers are those who, when Allah is mentioned, feel a tremor in their hearts, and when they hear His signs rehearsed, find their faith strengthened, and put (all) their trust in their Lord. [al-Anfal: 2]"

Sunday, December 04, 2005


currently busy with editing new skin. Hopefully it will be finished as soon as possible :)

Wednesday, November 30, 2005


Don't know what have overtaken me on the past few days. the course which was supposed to make me be a passive person....suddenly i became another person. A person that I never recognised before. Asking provocative question to talking about religion in front of all facilitators and the rest of my friend....I don't know who am I now.

With daily curry menu...couldn't they changed the menu...I think I have enough curry for my next 2-3 months. With thousands of info to which I don't know the exact truth, I am flat tired in the end.

Hopefully, I can enjoy the rest of summer holiday now. No more government-oriented course now. It is time for me to pack my luggage. See u later.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005


"beruntunglah andainya kau tahu apa yang ingin dicari kerana ramai manusia yang masih tercari-cari apa yang ingin dicari"

Sunday, November 20, 2005

antara dua cinta

apa yang ada jarang disyukuri
apa yang tiada sering dirisaukan
nikmat yang dikecap baru kan terasa bila hilang
apa yang diburu timbul rasa jemu
bila sudah di dalam genggaman

dunia ibarat air laut
diminum hanya menambah haus
nafsu bagaikan fatamorgana
di padang pasir

panas yang membahang disangka air
dunia dan nafsu bagai bayang-bayang
dilihat ada ditangkap hilang

Tuhan.. leraikanlah dunia
yang mendiam di dalam hatiku
kerana di situ tidak ku mampu
mengumpul dua cinta
hanya cintaMu ku harap tumbuh
dibajai bangkai dunia yang kubunuh


antara dua cinta yang bertemu ini, manusia sering terpaku pada cinta dunia. Cinta akhirat sering ditolak ke tepi. Cinta dunia hanyalah khayalan yang indah di mata. Hakikatnya ia hanyalah bersifat sementara.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Hijjaz - Rintihan

Biar berlinangan air mata
Ku takkan hentikannya
Biarkan ia menyembuh luka
Hilanglah rasa duka

Tidak ku termampu merentasi liku-liku
Oh sungguh ku tak mampu menghadapi semua itu
Oh sungguh ku tak upaya

Jangan dibiarkan jerih perih kehidupan
Bisa meleraikan iman...
Kan hancur semuanya
Walaupun menitis air mata darah
Tak bisa merubah segalanya
Melainkan taubat nasuha
Moga kan diterima...

Namun ku percaya
Masih ada kesudahannya
Kerana Allah itu
Maha kaya maha mendengar
Rintihan hamba-hambanya
Kerana sesiapa bertaqwa kepadanya
Pasti akan ada
Jalan keluarnya
Rezeki yang tidak disangka-sangka
Cukup Allah baginya berkuasa segala-galanya
Terima seadanya

Thursday, November 17, 2005

E-mail time capsule

Ever thinking of sending an email to yourself in the future? click here

Write whatever you like and read it later in the future, if you are alive of course ;)

I have wrote an email to myself to be send in about 5 years time. In it, I put my wishes and dreams that need to be realized by that time. So, how bout you?

aurat wanita

taken from bahan tarbiyyah

Wednesday, November 16, 2005


alhamdullillah, finally managed to endure all those examination papers. This time, the exam was very hard indeed. Wonder if next semester is even harder than this.

Bracing through this exam made me realised on one aspect. No matter how hard you dilligently studied and put your utmost effort for this exam, in the end....all of those does not really matter much. The question especially the multiple choice question were very difficult to comprehend and took lots of time to read the whole sentences. The last paper though, was easy and half of my batch already left the exam hall before it was over.

Throughout the entire exam period, I put all my hope to Allah alone. I prayed and hoped for the best. When we direly need something, we always turned to the Creator. This exam clearly shows the extent of putting all of your trust to Allah and hoping for the best.

Of asking help from Allah, we ought to know our relationship with Him. How close we are throughout the year? Is it only when the time for the exam comes, we become very close to Him and outside of those period, we neglect Him? Is it only when we are faced with great difficulties that we submit humbly to Him?

For our prayers to be accepted, our relationship should very close to the Almighty Allah throughout our life. How does one measures his relationship with the Lord?

An analogy; a person would like to make an appointment with the richest man in the world, Mr Bill Gates. Which factors need to be considered for us to make a successful appointment and later meet with Bill Gates? Surely, Bill Gates will look into our biography and perhaps our personal background and perhaps how valuable the meeting would be. One major factor is how valuable we are to him?

Similarly, we should ask ourselves, how much we have done for the sake of Allah alone till this day. Check and purify our intention. Why do we study and what are the reasons we asking help from Allah?

Now, I have come to the boundary of summer holiday. Months of free time should not gone to waste. The time is precious to everyone of us. Use this time to strengthen our faith and relationship with Allah. Only the relationship with Allah alone lasts forever and only with the help from the Creator, I will be able to see the right path lies ahead of me.

Still striving to capture the true meaning of this hadith....

“Indeed amazing are the affairs of a believer! They are all for his benefit. If he is granted ease of living he is thankful; and this is best for him. And if he is afflicted with a hardship, he perseveres; and this is best or him.” (Muslim)

PBL J sem IV

front row from left: Marie, Praveen, Dr Simon (paediatrician), Lee, Antoinette, Jessica
Behind from left: me, Safa, Mun, Ming, Christopher, Anneke.

Being a member of this group for one whole semester is rather interesting. Our main discussion is not the PBL case but always and always Dr House :D

Somehow, someone among us will raised the latest issue on the House and then, all of us deviated from PBL. With Mun and Christopher who are the avid fans of the drama and followed by most of us...including the wonder our group deviated too much.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005


Less than 2 weeks to go before my semester exam. I guess I have to stop blogging for now till the exam is over.

Neuroscience, genetics and endocrinology. Those were not that easy to comprehend though. Quite tough and too many minute details to be learned. Plus, I have to cover the anatomy of head, neck, pelvis and nerves of upper and lower limb. The hardest semester is almost over now.

Happy Eidul Fitri and may Ramadhan this year has gave you the strength to endure for the next 11 months.

Good luck to my batch who will be sitting for the coming exam.

-swot mode-

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Next....Hurricane Alpha

Currently on the Caribbean, Hurricane Wilma is on its rage. Many people are anxiously watching its projected path, whether it will follow its sister, Katrina and Rita or whether it will struck a new disaster at another place. Now, as the sentence being written, it is on Category 5. Enough said, that is the highest on the scale of hurricane.

Two major hurricanes recently and another one is coming. And a big earthquake in Pakistan. What shall we ought to learn from this? To contemplate deeply and to have insight on the future.

Interesting enough, the naming system of the hurricane follows alphabetical letter, from a to w, excluding p,q, x, y and z. Wilma is the last name for this season. So, after this, if there any new hurricane form, it shall be called as Hurricane Alpha.

It was mentioned in Al-Quran, surah 101...

1. Al-Qari`ah.
2. What is Al-Qari`ah
3. And what will make you know what Al-Qari`ah is
4. It is a Day whereon mankind will be like moths scattered about.
5. And the mountains will be like wool, carded.
6. Then as for him whose Balance will be heavy,
7. He will live a pleasant life.
8. But as for him whose Balance will be light,
9. shall have the abyss for his home.
10. Would that you knew what this is like.
11. It is a raging fire.

A day where mankind scattered everywhere....Hmm, isn't that similar if we knew a hurricane is approaching. Isn't that similar if a major earthquake happens at our place.

If only men knew what lies in the hereafter.....

Friday, October 14, 2005

time flows

How quick is the time that surround us. Like a leaf that falls to the ground without we ever care to notice, that is how time passed through us without we ever hesitate to contemplate on it.

Now, it is almost 12th day of Ramadhan. What have we achieved so far? Indeed, if we honestly measure our own achievement, there will be holes to be filled. If in a day we manage to read at least 4 pages of Quran after each prayer, in one day we can finish one juzu. Now, where is our status on reading the Holy Quran?

If one day we took time to perform qiam, the night prayer.....are we getting closer to Allah or is it we are getting further from Him?

The month of Ramadhan, the month of mercy lies in front all of muslims, yet few manage to get most out of it.

"By time. Verily Man is in loss. Except those who believe and do righteous deeds, and recommend one another to the truth, and recommend one another to patience"

Monday, October 10, 2005

virtue of Ramadan

Narrated Abu Huraira:
Allah's Apostle said, "When the month of Ramadan starts, the gates of the heaven are opened and the gates of Hell are closed and the devils are chained."
[hadith no 123, Sahih Bukhari]

Narrated Abu Huraira:
The Prophet said, "Whoever established prayers on the night of Qadr out of sincere faith and hoping for a reward from Allah, then all his previous sins will be forgiven;and whoever fasts in the month of Ramadan out of sincere faith, and hoping for areward from Allah, then all his previous sins will be forgiven."

[hadith no 125, Sahih Bukhari]

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

andai ini Ramadhan terakhir

wahai dikau...renunglah engkau akan nasib diri
wahai qalbu...sedarkah engkau akan gerak hati
wahai aqal...terfikirkah engkau akan apa yang bakal terjadi
andai ini merupakan Ramadhan yang terakhir kali buatmu
sekujur jasad yang bakal berlalu pergi
tatkala usia bernoktah di penghujung kehidupan duniawi
pabila tiba saat tepat seperti yang dijanji Ilahi
kematian...adalah sesuatu yang pasti

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu siangnya engkau sibuk berzikir
biarpun anak tekak kering kehausan air
tentu engkau tak akan jemu melagukan syair
rindu mendayu..merayu...kepada-NYA Tuhan yang satu

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu solatmu kau kerjakan di awal waktu
solat yang dikerjai...sungguh khusyuk lagi tawadhu'
tubuh, minda, dan qalbu...bersatu memperhamba diri
mengadap Rabbul Jalil... menangisi kecurangan janji
"innasolati wanusuki wamahyaya wamamati lillahirabbil 'alamin"
[sesungguhnya solatku, ibadahku, hidupku, dan matiku...
kuserahkan hanya kepada Allah Tuhan sekelian alam]

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tidak akan kau persiakan walau sesaat yang berlalu
setiap masa tak akan dipersia begitu saja
di setiap kesempatan juga masa yang terluang
alunan Al-Quran bakal kau dendang...bakal kau syairkan

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu malammu engkau sibukkan dengan pesta-pestaan
mengadu...merintih...meminta belas kasih
"sesungguhnya aku tidak layak untuk ke syurga-MU
tapi...aku juga tidak sanggup untuk ke neraka-MU"
oleh itu duhai Ilahi...kasihanilah daku hamba-MU ini

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu dirimu tak akan melupai mereka yang tersayang
ayuh ke mari kita meriahkan Ramadhan
kita buru...kita cari...suatu malam idaman
yang lebih berkat dari seribu bulan

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu engkau bakal bersedia batin dan zahir
mempersiap diri...rohani dan jasmani
menanti-nanti jemputan Izrail
di kiri dan kanan ...lorong-lorong redha Ar-Rahman

duhai Ilahi...
andai ini Ramadhan terakhir buat kami
jadikanlah ia Ramadhan paling bererti...paling berseri...
menerangi kegelapan hati-hati kami
menyuluhi diri ke jalan menuju redha serta kasih sayang mu Ya Ilahi
semoga bakal mewarnai kehidupan kami di sana nanti

namun saudara...
tak akan ada manusia yang bakal mengetahui
samada Ramadhan ini merupakan yang terakhir kali
hanya yang termampu bagi seorang hamba itu
berusaha...bersedia...meminta belas-NYA
andai benar ini Ramadhan terakhir buat kita

andai benar ini Ramadhan terakhir buatku
maafkanlah segala dosa-dosaku
daku hanyalah seorang insan biasa
mencari kasih Illahi yang abadi
duhai Illahi....kasihanilah daku, kekallah diri ini dalam iman yang abadi
dan hanya kepada-Mu, daku berharap...

Sunday, October 02, 2005


Bertemu kembali dengan Ramadhan
Kurasakan bahagia menyelubungi
Ya Allah daku bersyukur
Kau pertemukan aku semula
Ramadhan yang mulia

Di Ramadhan Ya Allah
Rahmatnya ku rasa
Banyakkan beribadah
Ku tahu pengampunan-Mu melangit tinggi

Ramadhan rahmat dari Illahi
Banyakkan beribadah dan berdoa
Hapuskan dosa tingkatkan pahala
Semoga beroleh makfirah
Moga kita akan jadi hamba yang setia

Ramadhan menyedarkan aku
Kesusahan yang dialami insan lain
Ramadhan ujian Illahi
Mengajar erti kesabaran dan kesetiaan

Andainya ini Ramadhan terakhir bagiku
Kuharap ianya kan membela ku di akhirat nanti


additional pictures

more pictures of Grampian here

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Grampians National Park

Last weekend, I went to Grampian National Park. Located 260 km from Melbourne. The experience of being there is truly amazing yet tiring. Due to time limitation, we could only visited several places. Among them, Mount Stapylton and Mackenzie Fall.

There are many interesting places that we have not covered yet. The National Park itself is rather big. 167,000 ha if i'm not mistaken. Hopefully in the future, I could go there again :)

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

my thick lecture notes for this semester - oblique view Posted by Hello

Friday, September 23, 2005

satu perjuangan...

Syukur Pada Yang Esa
Rahmat PemberianNya
Persaudaraan, Keharmonian

Jalinkan Kasih Sayang
Hulurkanlah Bantuan
Kepada Yang Memerlukannya

Mari Kita Bina Satu Ummah Maju jaya
Mula Diri, Keluarga, Sahabat
Masyarakat Dan Negara

Dengan Satu Perjuangan
Satu Arah Tujuan
Di Bawah Rahmat Yang Esa

Kita Melangkah Seiringan
Satu Perjuangan

Rintangan Pasti Melanda
Jangan Undur Walau Selangkah
Teruskan Perjuangan
Hingga Ke Akhirnya
Andai Kau Gugur
Andai Kau Syahid
Kau DiredhaiNya


Monday, September 19, 2005


Today, we were introduced to a patient who has a genetic condition. She was short in stature and has several disabilities. Listening to her experience in being 'disabled' yet abled in different ways, I remembered the many verses of Quran.

The concept of blessing. Till today and this very second you read this word, you are living under the blessing of the lord of the universe. Without His blessing, we are NOTHING. The patient we saw in front of us was taken away several blessings that were given to other people. Same goes to everyone. Not all people receive the same kind of blessing. Some are given the blessing of wealth, health and even the blessing of wisdom. Some are not.

Everytime I looked around, the sight of seeing people and nature remind me the greatness of Allah and the blessing that I have. I used to have the blessing of sharp vision. I can see minute details from far away. But now, the blessing is already taken away from me. I have to use spectacle to see the world. And without my spectacles, the world seems blurry indeed. Yet, I am not complaining about the blessing that I does not have. I am grateful to Allah.

Alhamdulillah, despite I don't have the blessing of good vision, He still gave me the biggest blessing of all blessings. The blessing of Islam and Iman. Alhamdulillah.

Look around us. Take time to ponder on the greatness of islam and iman. See what have happened to the people without of these blessings.

Alhamdullillah, although my deeds are not that significant, Allah still gave me time to repent to Him. Alhamdullillah, I am still alive at this very moment to write the sentences on this blog. My time in this world, it is up to Allah to decide on that.

"Then which of the favours of your Lord deny will you deny? [55:13]"

"Has there not been over man a long period of time, when he was nothing - (not even) mentioned? [76 :001]"

To be able to see the world, to be able to breathe the air....everything point to the Creator, Allah SWT.

"Blessed is He in Whose hand is the dominion, and He is able to do all things. [67:1]"

Thursday, September 15, 2005


It is so fast. Now is already at the end of week 9. Next week, there will be 3rd test. Few weeks more, there will be final exam of this semester.

Then, after the exam...summer holiday.

Hopefully can cope with the burden of neuroscience, genetics and endocrinology...

Sunday, September 11, 2005

002.155 وَلَنَبْلُوَنَّكُمْ بِشَيْءٍ مِنَ الْخَوْفِ وَالْجُوعِ وَنَقْصٍ مِنَ الأمْوَالِ وَالأنْفُسِ وَالثَّمَرَاتِ وَبَشِّرِ الصَّابِرِينَ
002.156 الَّذِينَ إِذَا أَصَابَتْهُمْ مُصِيبَةٌ قَالُوا إِنَّا لِلَّهِ وَإِنَّا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعُونَ
002.157 أُولَئِكَ عَلَيْهِمْ صَلَوَاتٌ مِنْ رَبِّهِمْ وَرَحْمَةٌ وَأُولَئِكَ هُمُ الْمُهْتَدُونَ
002.155 Be sure we shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere,
002.156 Who say, when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah We belong, and to Him is our return":-
002.157 They are those on whom (Descend) blessings from Allah, and Mercy, and they are the ones that receive guidance.

Friday, September 09, 2005

of words...

For almost two years now, whenever we were confronted with patients telling their sad stories of their illness, we were taught to say this stereotype phrase "I'm sorry to hear that". The phrase was intended to convey our empathy towards the patient.

Practising the phrase for almost an endless times, now I think the phrase is losing its sole purpose. The phrase seems to devoid the essence of sympathy and seems to be conveying a reflex response. Just asked the simulated patients that were interviewed many times by the medical students in one day, the phrase to them is seen as exhaustive repetition by the students. No wonder the phrase lose its significance.

Now, confronting with a situation where one of my friends is facing chronic illness, I'm speechless. The phrase is not suitable anymore. No such words can help to alleviate my friend's illness. If I said I understand how my friend feels, perhaps that is not so true as if I have been experiencing the same kind of pain previously. And it is not my monye that goes out of the pocket too. No words can truly express my sympathy to my friend. A bit frustating too.

It is true what have been said in this hadith... If you (have need to) ask, ask of Allah; and if you seek help, seek help from Allah. Know that even if the Nation (or the whole community) were to gather together to benefit you with something, they would not benefit you with anything except that which Allah has already recorded for you....[Tirmidhi]

The only thing that I could write is this hadith.
“Indeed amazing are the affairs of a believer! They are all for his benefit. If he is granted ease of living he is thankful; and this is best for him. And if he is afflicted with a hardship, he perseveres; and this is best or him.” (Muslim)

"O Allah our lord! Bless my friend with the strength to cope with the illness. Grant her with the wisdom to seek the 'hikmah' beyond the illness. O Allah. Please forgive her sins and help her to recover soon. Amin"

Wednesday, September 07, 2005


Ya Allah Engkau Mengetahui bahawa hati-hati ini telah berkumpul kerana MengasihiMu, bertemu untuk mematuhi (perintah)Mu, bersatu memikul beban dakwah Mu, Hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia untuk mendaulat dan menyokong syari'at Mu,maka eratkanlah Ya Allah akan ikatannya.

Kekalkan kemesraan antara hati-hati ini. Tunjukkanlah kepada hati-hati ini akan jalan-Nya (yang sebenar). Penuhkan hati ini dengan cahaya RabbaniMu yang tidak kunjung malap. Lapangkan hati-hati ini dengan limpahan iman dan keindahan tawakkal kepadaMu.

Hidup suburkan hati-hati ini dengan ma'rifat (pengetahuan sebenar) tentang Mu...(Jika Engkau mentaqdirkan mati) maka matikanlah pemilik hati-hati ini sebagai para syuhada' dalam perjuangan agamaMu. Engkaulah sebaik-baik sandaran dan sebaik-baik penolong.

Ya Allah! Perkenankanlah permintaan ini...

Sunday, September 04, 2005

to make heart tender

An-Nu`man ibn Bashir, radhiallahu `anhu, narrated that he heard the Prophet, sallallahu `alaihi wa sallam say:
“The least torture in the Hell on the Day of Judgment is that of a man whose foot sole is laid on a live coal which causes his brain to boil just like a boiler.” [Bukhari and Muslim]

Muslim narrated in his Sahih:
“He does not think that any other person is tortured more severely than him although he is in the least torture.”[Muslim]
Abil Huraira reported Allah's Apostle (may peace be upon him) as saying:
The fire which sons of Adam burn is only one-seventieth part of the Fire of Hell. His Companions said: By Allah, even ordinary fire would have been enough (to burn people). Thereupon he said: It is sixty-nine parts in excess of (the heat of) fire in this world each of them being equivalent to their heat. [Muslim]
Narrated by Abu Huraira, Allah's Apostle said,
"The (Hell) Fire is surrounded by all kinds of desires and passions, while Paradise is surrounded by all kinds of disliked undesirable things." [Bukhari]
Narrated by Abu Huraira, Allah's Apostle said,
"If you knew that which I know, you would laugh little and weep much." [Bukhari]

Saturday, September 03, 2005


Sebenarnya hati ini cinta kepada-Mu
Sebenarnya diri ini rindu kepada-Mu

Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa cinta masih tak hadir
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa rindu belum berbunga

Sesungguhnya walau kukutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau kusiram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langitpun
Namun cinta takkan hadir
Namun rindu tak akan berbunga

Kucuba menhulurkan sebuah hadiah kepada-Mu
Tapi mungkin isinya tidak sempurna tiada seri
Kucuba menyiramnya agar tumbuh berbunga
Tapi mungkin kerana airnya tidak sesegar telaga kautsar

Sesungguhnya walau kukutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau kusiram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langitpun
Namun cinta takkan hadir
Namun rindu tak akan berbunga
Jika tidak mengharap rahmat-Mu
Jika tidak menagih simpati
Pada Mu Ya Allah

Tuhan hadiahkanlah kasih-Mu kepadaku
Tuhan kurniakanlah rinduku kepada-Mu
Moga ku tahu syukurku adalah milik-Mu


Wednesday, August 31, 2005

erti merdeka

Merdeka! acapkali kita ucapkan tanpa memahami erti sebenar kalimah yang dilaungkan di bibir.

Merdeka itu hanyalah suatu kalimah yang erti sebenarnya seringkali disalahertikan. Merdeka itu maksudnya 'perpindahan dari suatu wilayah ke suatu wilayah lain'. Dari suatu bentuk kekuasaan, kita berpindah ke suatu bentuk kekuasaan yang lain.

Manusia akan senantiasa berada di bawah jajahan pelbagai bentuk kekuasaan. Manusia yang berlandaskan nafsu semata-mata, manusia yang memikirkan harta benda, manusia yang memiliki semangat kebangsaan. Kesemua ini membuktikan manusia berada di bawah jajahan suatu kuasa. Samada dijajah kuasa nafsu, harta benda mahupun semangat kebangsaan, manusia tidak akan terlepas dijajah.

Andainya manusia memikirkan dia telah merdeka apabila negaranya dibebaskan oleh suatu negara penjajah, dia ternyata salah. Negara adalah suatu kawasan yang didiami umat manusia. Secara fizikalnya, negara itu hanyalah sebidang tanah luas. Adakah penukaran milik hak ke atas tanah itu suatu bentuk kemerdekaan mutlak?

Siapakah tuan punya sebenar tanah yang dinamakan negara itu? Adakah manusia yang hayatnya pendek berhak mengatakan tanah itu milik bangsa dia?

Sedarilah bahawa tuan punya tanah yang dinamakan negara itu juga memiliki tanah-tanah lain, bahkan Dia juga memiliki alam semesta dan memilik manusia sendiri. Itulah Allah Subhanahu Wa Taala, Tuhan sekelian alam.

Manusia seringkali mengaitkan erti kemerdekaan itu dengan perubahan pemikiran. Dari suatu bentuk pemikiran yang jumud dan lapuk ditelan zaman kepada suatu pemikiran yang moden. Tidakkah bentuk-bentuk pemikiran itu adalah suatu bentuk kekuasaan. Pembebasan pemikiran hanyalah suatu bentuk perpindahan dari suatu penjajah ke suatu penjajah lain. Kita akan selamanya dijajah oleh pelbagai bentuk pemikiran.

Manusia tidak akan selamanya mencapai erti kemerdekaan mutlak. Selama-lamanya dia akan berada di bawah tampuk kekuasaan Tuhan yang Esa. Sedarlah, kita ini hanyalah hamba kepada suatu kuasa agung. Hamba kepada Tuhan Yang Maha Kuasa.

Merdekakah kita ini? Ingatlah, selama mana kita ini mendiami bumi, menerima pelbagai nikmat dari Tuhan dan diberi nyawa....kita tidak akan dapat mencapai erti merdeka yang mutlak. Kita hanyalah hamba. Hamba kepada Tuhan yang Esa.

Janganlah kita ini ditipu dunia. Mengejari bayang-bayang indah di sekeliling kita. Jangan dibiarkan diri ini dijajah hawa nafsu dan godaan syaitan. Janganlah menjadi hamba nafsu. Kemerdekaan yang paling tinggi kita boleh capai hanyalah menjadi hamba kepada suatu kuasa yang paling agung. Impian tertinggi kita hanyalah untuk menjadi hamba Tuhan. Itulah erti kemerdekaan yang sebenar.

Tatkala kemerdekaan ini disambut di pelbagai lapisan masyarakat di suatu bidang tanah yang bernama Malaysia, marilah kita bersama-sama menghayati erti kemerdekaan sebenar.

Berusahalah sedaya-upaya untuk memiliki gelaran hamba Allah. Ketahuilah! Hanya hamba Tuhan adalah makhluk yang berjaya mencapai erti kemerdekaan yang kekal abadi.


show them love

early this morning, while I was busy conquering anatomy, suddenly there was a knock on the door. Thinking that was a postman delivering some package, I quickly opened the door.

Yet in front of me, not a single postman could be seen. Two persons. Two elderly persons and one was carrying a big black handbag. One old man and one old woman.

The old man greeted me and they said to me, they were Jehovah's witness and would like to talk about faith. After several minutes or so talking and exchanging opinions about faith, some of them were quite a heated discussion though. I strongly objected their opinion on the existence of the original Bible but they were opposed to my words.

To my surprise, the man knew a lot about islam and the Prophet Muhammad. One of my housemate came and joined our discussion. Then, my housemate asked the man, "if you knew so much about islam, why don't you become a muslim?"

He replied, "Before this I am a Christian and I have travelled around the world in search of finding true faith. I have met many people of different races of different religions. I become Jehovah's witness because in it, it teach us to love each other. I have never found any other religion beside Jehovah's witness that shows the true form of love. Muslims have their own war among themselves. Sunnis fought with Syia' and even among muslims, they always kept arguing and never I could find the true love that I seek for,"

My housemate told them not to judge the book by its cover but it seems that they were judging islam based on the attitude of the muslims nowadays.

It is true what have he said. Muslim nowadays are lacking in love. Love towards each other. Love among human beings. What have been told in Quran not fully applied in their life. His statement truly pierced my heart.

Reflecting back on myself, quickly I searched any evidence throughout my life whether I have shown any love towards other people especially non-Muslim. They were too few to be mentioned.

Looking there were few muslims who truly observed the guidelines of the islam. If a muslimah wears hijab, she might not wear it appropriately. She might wear hijab but then her attitude does not truly reflect what islam conveys. She might wear hijab but only her hair are covered not her body. Though wearing full length clothes but the clothes were too much revealing.

Same goes to muslim brothers. Some of them wear shorts, necklace and even dyed their hairs. Though they have been brought up in muslim community, when they came here, they have changed. Some of them even to the extent of joining party to which the alcohol are freely available.

A fact that I have been observing for too long indeed. It happens in front of my eye. Till now, I have always told my own heart, they will change and repent some time in the future. There is still hope for them.

But when the man of Jehovah's witness mentioned that there is no love among Muslims, my heart broke. The truth hurts. Really deep.

Why aren't Muslims following the true path of God? Why this man become Jehovah's witness instead of Muslim? Honestly, it is our own fault. My fault too. Too immersed with the blessing of this world and not practising the true form of Islam. Words are easier to be written but when come to application...

Show them love. Show the world the love of islam. Only in islam, you could find the true love. The love and mercy of God, the Creator of the universe.

Monday, August 29, 2005


definition - A false perception occurring without any true sensory stimulus.

This week PBL case was on a schizophrenia patient who has this illusion that he has been commanded by Bill Gates to unite the world and later to leave his body and entering the network of computer.

Interesting to note that how such a person could changed rather dramatically. I have known one of my friends who dramatically changed his personality overnight and later send to psychiatric clinic. Pity him for he had to postponed a year of his education.

Hallucination is a big matter indeed. Something that we assumed true and later we found out that the thing is false. How frustating that would be. From hallucination, stem out fear and perhaps obsess.

Thinking of this hallucination, I suddenly remember this verse.

"And the life of this world is nothing but play and amusement. But far better is the house in the Hereafter for those who are Muttaqun. Will you not then understand?" [Al-an'am: 32]

Imagine you are now entering the gate called death and behind that gate, you met someone who asked you about your deed [amal]. What have you brought for the hereafter?

The gate is now closed forever and you can't returned back to the world. Back in those days spending time in the temporal world, you laughed heartily and spend time to waste. More than once, someone or something reminds you to remember the hereafter and to worship dilligently but you always forgot.

The life behind the gate seems so far away to the extent it is an imaginary. Imaginary or not, you are now seeing those life behind the gate with your own eyes. Second chance is not permissible. Whatever you done in this world will be judged.

Hallucinating we always are. The life behind the gate of death seems to far away to be mentioned. We are still in early 20's. Still growing and still learning. Death, give us some time to enjoy this world. But, have we not have enough?

For more than 20 years, isn't it enough yet? If we are given 20 years to prepare for an exam, logically we should have prepared a lot for those exam by now. At least, if we fail, we could sit for supplementary exam ;) But the exam behind those gate of death is only once and no second chance is given. Be prepared. Don't hallucinate too much on this temporal world guys!

Saturday, August 27, 2005

clear off

Anti-Secularism Muslims Told to Leave Australia

SYDNEY, August 24, 2005 ( & News Agencies) – A day after a special meeting between Australian Prime Minister John Howard and Muslim leaders, Muslims who do not respect secularism and law were told Wednesday, August 24, to leave the country.

"If those are not your values, if you want a country which has Shari`ah law or a theocratic state, then Australia is not for you," Treasurer Peter Costello, seen as heir apparent to Howard, said on national television.

He was quoted by Agence France-Presse (AFP) as saying that there are no two laws governing people in Australia.

"I'd be saying to clerics who are teaching that there are two laws governing people in Australia, one the Australian law and another the Islamic law, that that is false," he stressed.

"If you can't agree with parliamentary law, independent courts, democracy, and would prefer Shari`ah law and have the opportunity to go to another country which practices it, perhaps, then, that's a better option," Costello, a conservative Catholic, added.

Costello has been Deputy Leader of the Liberal Party since 1994, and Treasurer in the Australian government since 1996.

Education Minister Brendan Nelson further told reporters that Muslims who did not want to accept local values should "clear off".

"Basically, people who don't want to be Australians, and they don't want to live by Australian values and understand them, well then they can basically clear off," he said.


The remarks came one day after Muslim leaders pledged to defend the country against "terrorism," disowned Osama bin Laden and accepted differences with the government over the Iraq invasion in their meeting with Howard.
The prime minister called the meeting in the wake of last month's London bombings by British-born Muslims, amid fears that Australia could be the target of a similar attack by disaffected members of its Muslim minority.

"The purpose of the meeting was to identify ways of preventing the emergence of any terrorist behavior in this country," Howard told commercial radio Wednesday.

"You won't change the minds of people who are hardened fanatics and hardened extremists. You have to identify them and take measures to ensure that they don't become a problem."

Asked if he was prepared to "get inside" mosques and schools to ensure there was no support for terrorism, Howard said: "Yes, to the extent necessary".

Australia is also contemplating tougher anti-terror legislation, which will be debated next month at a meeting between Howard and leaders of state governments, according to AFP.

The Affinity Intercultural Foundation (AIF), an Islamic youth organisation that was not invited to Tuesday’s meeting, said 80 percent of Aussie Muslims were not represented.

It told national radio that it will organize a meeting for Muslims in September to try to highlight how mainstream Muslims have become victims of prejudice and bias.

AIF director Mehmet Saral said Muslims were feeling more victimized than at any other time in their history of living in Australia.

Some 300,000 Muslims make up just 1.5 percent of Australia's population of 20 million.

islam online

Tuesday, August 23, 2005


Dari jauh dia lihat papan tanda itu. Angka 22 makin lama makin jelas kelihatan. Derap demi derap, kakinya dihayunkan menuju ke tempat itu. Setelah beberapa lama berjalan, akhirnya dia sampai ke tempat itu.

Tempat yang hanya bersimbolkan 22. Sebuah tempat persinggahan buat pengembara seperti dia. Dia melihat sekeliling dan mendapati ada beberapa pengembara lain yang baru tiba di situ dan tidak kurangnya, ada sekumpulan pengembara yang kelihatan seolah-olah mereka telah tiba di sini lebih awal.

Tempat ini. 22 tahun dia mengembara. Akhirnya dia sampai jua ke tempat persinggahan ini. Tidak jauh dari tempat dia berdiri, kelihatan sebuah kedai makan. Ramai orang makan di situ.

"Wahai saudara, nak makan apa? Pilihlah yang mana dihajati. Kesemua makanan di sini percuma berlaka." kata tuan punya kedai makan itu.

Dia termangu kehairanan. Percuma?

"Percayalah saudara. Ini semuanya percuma. Kesemua makanan ini diberikan secara percuma oleh Tuan punya segala benda. Dialah yang saudara akan ketemui kelak di akhir pengembaraan saudara nanti." Jelas tuan punya kedai makan lagi.

Setelah memesan beberapa makanan buat mengisi perut yang lapar, dia duduk di suatu tempat di hujung kedai itu. Melayangkan wajahnya ke sekeliling, dia gembira melihatkan ramai pengembara yang berehat di situ. Tidak jauh dari kedai itu, ada beberapa pengembara yang kelihatan sedang bersuka-ria dengan sesuatu.

Lantas dia bertanya kepada orang di sebelah. Orang itu kelihatan seakan-akan orang yang berilmu.

"Erm,saudara. Boleh saya bertanya? Apa yang mereka di situ sedang buat?" tanya dia pada orang itu.

"Mereka itu sedang bergembira dengan nikmat yang dinamakan dunia. Mereka terlupa bahawa mereka itu hanyalah pengembara yang meniti sebuah pengembaraan sementara."

"Oh dunia! Kasihan mereka." kata dia dalam hati.

"Tahukah saudara akan tujuan pengembaraan kita semua ini?" Tanya orang itu kepada dia. Lalu orang itu menerangkan maksud sebenar tujuan pengembaraan.

Ada pun manusia dijadikan seolah-olah seakan-akan seorang pengembara merentasi alam menuju ke tempat yang dinamakan akhirat. Di dalam pengembaraan di alam dunia, dari satu tempat persingahan ke satu tempat persinggahan yang lain, seorang pengembara itu akan diuji. Ujian itu bukanlah untuk menyusahkan pengembaraannya namun adalah untuk membersihkan jiwa rohani dia daripada saki-baki kekotoran. Namun begitu, tidak ramai pengembara yang mampu mengharungi ranjau sepanjang perjalanan mereka.

Dia mula memahami akan maksud yang ingin disampaikan oleh orang itu. Sudah 22 tempat persinggahan dia lalui. Dia merenung kembali akan pengembaraannya yang lalu. Tidak dapat dinafikan, kadang-kala dia gagal melawan nikmat arus dunia dan kadang-kala dia tersedar semula.

Dia mengingati kembali akan rupa hatinya. Setitis demi titisan air mata berlinang membasahi pipinya. Dia sedar hatinya masih ada beberapa titik hitam untuk dibersihkan. Pilu dia mengingatkan hal itu. 22 tahun mengembara, mengapa hatinya masih lagi diselaputi titik-titik hitam itu?

22 tahun berlalu, dia telah menyaksikan ramai pengembara yang telah berakhir pengembaraan mereka. Nenek yang disayanginya baru sahaja menamatkan pengembaraannya ketika dia berada di tempat persinggahan 21.

Dia mula terfikir. Bilakah pengembaraan dia akan berakhir? Sudahkah dia bersedia untuk bertemu Tuan Pemilik tempat bernama akhirat?

Oh! Bekalannya masih lagi kurang. Bekalannya masih lagi merintih-rintih untuk dipenuhi. Imannya meraung-raung untuk dipertingkatkan namun nikmat dunia masih lagi membelenggu diri dia.

Lantas dia berdoa.
"Oh Tuhan! Ampunilah dosa daku. Oh Tuhan! Andainya daku berada jauh daripada naungan-Mu, peringatkanlah daku. Oh Tuhan! Sesungguhnya daku hanyalah hamba-Mu yang lemah. Tolonglah daku mencari rahmat-Mu. Bantulah daku mencari kasih sayang-Mu."

Dia berteleku lama di tempat itu. Merenung dan memikirkan hala tuju pengembaraan dia. Tanpa disedari, dia menyebutkan kalimah-kalimah itu. Kalimah yang membasahi hati. Membersihkan selaput dosa dan merungkaikan ikatan maksiat lalu memperkuatkan rantaian keimanan.

Wahai Tuhan, ku tak layak ke surgaMu
Namun tak pula aku sanggup ke nerakaMu
Ampunkan dosaku, terimalah taubatku
Sesungguhnya Engkaulah pengampun dosa-dosa besar

Ilahi lastu lil firdausi ahlaa
Wa laa aqwa 'alaa naaril jahiimi
Fahabli taubataw waghfir dzunuubi
Fa innaka ghofirudz dzam bil 'adhiimi

Dosa-dosaku bagaikan pepasir di pantai
Dengan rahmatMu ampunkan daku oh Tuhanku

Wahai Tuhan selamatkan kami ini
Dari segala kejahatan dan kecelakaan
Kami takut, kami harap kepadaMu
Suburkanlah cinta kami kepadaMu

Kamilah hamba yang mengharap belas dariMu


Dia bangun lalu mula melangkahkan kakinya semula. Pengembaraan ini masih lagi jauh. Banyak lagi yang perlu dia kutip sebagai persediaannya. Dia mula menyambung kembali pengembaraannya. 22 tahun mengembara, dia seharusnya lebih bersedia dan lebih matang merencanakan hala tuju pengembaraannya ini.

Dari tempat persinggahan 22, dia mula bergerak ke tempat yang digelar 23. Ayuh! Dia harus bersegera mempersiapkan diri dan memantapkan bekalan...

Saturday, August 20, 2005


That is the current number of real view of this blog. 4444th visitor have this IP address as I knew who is the visitor but won't reveal the identity here :)

Most of the visitor of this blog are my friends and some of them most probably stumbled accidentally via surfing. It is not surprising to me if there were accidental visit from Taiwan, Korea or even some Southern American countries.

Ok. Enough said.

[study mode]

Friday, August 19, 2005


For the past few weeks, we have quite significant PBL cases. We have Multiple Sclerosis, tumour and tumour, again & again...and this week is about Huntington Disease. All of them shared one common thing. All of the patients, most of these PBL cases were based on true story though.....most of them will die in a couple of months.

Take for example the patient with brain tumour, depending on the location of the tumour and the severity of it, the patient could expect to live in a couple of months time or to live for several more years.

My PBL mates always have this to say to me; "Why is it PBL patients all of them have to die? Pity them to die at such young age?" Most of my PBL mates hated the case to be ended with death.

Death. Some said it is the worst thing that could ever to a human being. Some said if death could be prevented, human will achieve a better and more significant quality of life.

Indeed, if you were to ask the people of what they will do if today or even this very minute is the last time they will live....they will be shocked. Very shocked an most probably stunned by the question.

As for a Muslim, he ought to remember this life is only a transition from one place to another place. Life is a journey. Yet the journey on this world is too short for us to fill it with useless matter.

What will you do if you were diagnosed with some life-threatening disease and told by the doctor that you only have a couple of months to live? What more if you suddenly die during your sleep without any prior warning?


Monday, August 15, 2005

paradigmshift: 1 year

After one year existing on the virtual world, today is the first anniversary of this blog. One year....much have been gained through this blog. Personally, some of the objectives that I have set one year ago have been achieved yet some were still far.

Using the medium of this virtual world as the way of me expressing on everything, be it personal matter, be it my opinion towards the globe....I personally believed there exist lots of room for me to improve on.

Lacking the ability to compose beautiful and wonderful writing in both English and Malay, I have still lots of things to do. The blog is only a tool. If you are able to use the tool wisely, you would be able to achieve something that is far greater than what have you been imagining previously.

One year being a blog writer, I have gained deeper understanding on the languange of HTML. Up till today, I have created at least two separate designs for this blog. One was green in colour and the existing template is rather blue in its background. Yet, my knowledge is still too small to be proud of. The existing template is not stable for non Win-XP viewing. Not to mention differences across different browsers such as IE or Mozilla. Yearning to be able to construct a template that is hopefully stable across different platforms.

One year gone. Looking at the web statistics of this blog, it does startled me a bit. To know there were more than 4000 real visits throughout a year and out of that, the visitors spanned across the entire world. Ireland, United Kingdom, Egypt, Saudi Arabia, Malaysia, Singapore, Indonesia, Australia, New Zealand, Japan and USA and few more countries. At least some of the visitors were my friends but the rest of them, I wonder who are they. Would be glad to know them too. At least, I could expand my friendship. Hopefully they will leave their comment at the Haloscan or at the tagboard on the right ;)

Current statistics of the blog.

The original name of this blog is paradigmshift and the original url is

Paradigmshift as it was called refelcting my effort of continuously moving towards positive change in the coming future. A year now, I guess some of those fundamental that was part of me have changed completely and some yet to be changed.

Enough writing for today. Off to study. Neuroscience, here I come :)

Saturday, August 13, 2005

pengembaraan yang lalu

Pengembaraan selama 5 hari ini menyedarkan diriku akan suatu hakikat yang seringkali dilupai. Hakikat yang kadangkala kita sendiri tidak ingin mengakuinya. Hakikat yang akan terjadi dan sedang berlaku pada diriku ini. Hidup ini hanya semata-mata sebuah pengembaraan dari alam ruh melalui alam dunia menuju ke alam baqa dan destinasi akhir ialah alam akhirat.

Semua manusia yang diberikan nikmat kehidupan tatkala ini sedang mengembara. Dari alam ruh kita dibangkitkan dan di alam akhirat kita semua akan dikumpulkan. Pengembaraan di alam dunia merupakan satu-satunya pengembaraan yang sukar sekali. Di alam ruh, kita semua berjanji untuk tetap teguh dan patuh pada perintah Tuhan namun apabila mengembara di alam dunia, sebahagian besar kita terlupa. Lalai dan hanyut menikmati keindahan dunia fana. Apabila kita melangkah ke alam baqa dan alam kiamat, ramai yang menyesal tidak terperi.

Di dalam pengembaraan ini, kita dikurniakan pelbagai nikmat beserta ujian. Fitrah manusia, kita seringkali terlupa. Kita lupa nikmat itu sementara. Kita lupa ujian itu adalah pembersih jiwa yang kotor diselaputi dosa. Kita seringkali terlupa. Atas dasar itulah, kita seharusnya mencari majlis-majlis atau aktiviti yang mampu memperingatkan diri ini.

Dari Ibn Umar r.a., katanya : " Rasulullah SAW telah memegang bahuku dan bersabda : ' Anggaplah dirimu di dunia ini sebagai seorang perantau, atau pengembara. ' Maka Ibn Umar berkata : "Jika engkau berada di waktu petang, maka janganlah engkau menunggu pagi. Dan jika engkau berada di waktu pagi maka janganlah engkau menunggu petang. Gunakanlah waktu sihatmu sebelum datang waktu sakit. Dan gunakanlah waktu hidupmu sebelum datang waktu mati. "

-Sahih Bukari-
Hadis ini cukup bermakna sekali. Apa tujuan kita di dunia ini? Apakah cara terbaik untuk menjalani hidup di dunia ini? Semuanya terkandung di dalam hadis ini.

Anggaplah diri ini selaku seorang pengembara. Selaku seorang pengembara, diri ini sepatutnya merindui tempat yang ditujui. Alam dunia ini hanyalah sementara. Alam akhirat itu yang kekal abadi. Perasaan rindu akan alam akhirat seharusnya mengingatkan diri ini untuk mempersiapkan bekalan yang secukupnya untuk dibawa pulang ke alam akhirat. Selaku seorang pengembara, diri ini tidak seharusnya terlalu leka menikmati segala bentuk keindahan di tempat persinggahan ini.

Andainya diri ini leka menikmati nikmat masa yang terhad di dunia, ingatlah pengembaraan di alam dunia ini sangatlah pendek. Seumpama dalam sekelip mata, diri ini akan berada di alam akhirat.

Ada orang diberikan tanda-tanda apabila pengembaraannya di dunia ini akan berakhir. Dia akan jatuh sakit, atau dia mungkin ditimpa kemalangan lalu terlantar di hospital atau mungkin dia akan menerima mimpi kematiannya. Ada orang tidak akan diberikan tanda-tanda itu. Dia mungkin mati ditembak, mati akibat sakit jantung secara tiba-tiba atau mungkin mati di dalam tidur tanpa sempat berbuat apa-apa. Pendek kata, pengembaraan ini cukup singkat. Bersedialah untuk meneruskan pengembaraan ke alam baqa dan seterusnya ke alam akhirat.

Andainya diri ini mempunyai sahabat, ingatlah sahabat itu hanya sementara. Andainya diri ini mempunyai ibu bapa, percayalah mereka hanyalah sementara. Andainya diri ini dikurniakan ilmu dan harta yang banyak, ingatlah itu semua hanya sementara. Sahabat, ibu bapa, ilmu dan harta....semuanya akan meninggalkan diri ini tatkala diri ini berada di alam akhirat.

Andainya diri ini masih dikurniakan masa untuk merenungi akan pengembaraan yang lalu, renungilah akan bekalan yang telah dibawa setakat ini. Sudahkah ia cukup untuk diri ini berhujah di depan Pencipta? Sudahkah diri ini mempergunakan nikmat-nikmat yang dikurniakan-Nya dengan sebaik-baiknya? Tatkala diri ini sedang mempelajari ilmu perubatan, andainya diri ini mengeluh kerna kesusahan memahaminya.....ingatlah bahawa hanya Allah SWT sahaja yang mampu memberikan kefahaman terhadap ilmu yang dipelajari. Ingatilah Tuhan, moga-moga Tuhan akan membantu diri ini memahami ilmu yang ingin difahami. Walaupun hakikatnya segala ilmu yang kita pelajari hanyalah sementara.

Andainya diri ini sibuk bekerja dan mengeluh keletihan, ingatlah bahawa jantung yang berdenyut sejak diri ini dilahirkan, tidak pernah sekali mengeluh. Andainya diri ini keletihan bekerja dan ingin berehat atau bercuti panjang, ingatlah bahawa jantung tidak pernah bercuti sehinggalah Allah yang memberikan arahan kepadanya untuk berhenti. Haruskah diri ini mengeluh keletihan melakukan sebarang bentuk pekerjaaan? Hakikatnya, segala bentuk pekerjaan yang kita lakukan juga adalah sementara.

Yang kekal di alam akhirat, hanyalah ketakwaan diri ini terhadap Illahi. Pengembaraan di dunia ini pendek. Gunalah nikmat yang diberikan sebaik-baiknya.

-ingatan buat diri ini yang alpa-

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

pengalaman yang lalu

Berlalunya program Winter Trip 05 pada bulan yang lalu, telah banyak mengajarkan daku akan erti kehidupan seorang insan. Menjejakkan kaki ke bumi Canberra, aku bertemu dengan keindahan rupa bentuk bangunan Parlimennya. Kagum sebentar melihat kehebatan manusia mencipta bangunan yang cukup unik itu. Tiang bendera Australia yang seakan terapung-apung di udara yang membayangkan kemegahan Australia di serata pelusuk dunia.

Kemudian, melihatkan bangunan War Memorial....aku teringatkan kisah silam umat Islam. Kisah jatuhnya kerajaan Turki Uthmaniah di bawah pelbagai bentuk serangan dari pihak musuh. Dan kini, berpecah-belahlah umat islam tanpa naungan seorang khalifah. Umat yang asalnya bersatu-padu atas dasar agama kini bertelingkah dan bermusuhan sesama sendiri. Nama islam namun hatinya terlalu kuat mementingkan semangat bangsa. Bilakah islam akan kembali bangkit memegang tampuk dunia? Bilakah lagi akan berulangnya kisah kegemilangan agama islam yang suci?

Dari Canberra, aku merentasi gunung-ganang luas lalu bertemu dengan bandaraya Sydney. Bandaraya terbesar dan gah dengan pelbagai keindahan. Bangunan Sydney Opera House yang unik bentuknya dan kawasan sekitar yang penuh dengan pelbagai struktur menarik. Bangunan pencakar langit yang tinggi.

Sekali kagum melihat keindahan tempat itu. Pelabuhannya sibuk dengan pelbagai kapal berbagai-bagai saiz. Ada yang kecil dan ada yang besar. Feri yang berlainan jenis secara teratur melayari pelabuhan yang makin lama makin sibuk. Sydney, bandaraya indah namun dipenuhi dengan ramai manusia yang lupa akan matlamat asal kehidupan.

Setelah sehari berada di Sydney, kami memulakan pengembaraan yang kukira jauh. Ke Adelaide, itulah matlamat kami. 20 jam pengembaraan, tidak kurangnya pengalaman pahit mahupun manis yang telah ditimba.

Ada suatu ketika, tatkala kami sedang enak dibuai mimpi sambil pemandu memandu van dengan cermatnya.....tiba-tiba kedengaran bunyi kuat di bawah van. Seakan-akan bunyi tayar meletup lalu pancit. Cemas. Kami berhenti di tepi lebuhraya. Ketika itu malam gelap. Hanya bintang dan bulan menemani kami. Van lain sudah jauh meninggalkan kami bersendirian di tengah-tengah padang pasir. Kulihat tayar ok. Tiada yang pancit. Kulihat kesemua keempat tayar. Semuanya sempurna. Aku cuba mencari punca bunyi tadi.

Oh! Benda paling jarang berlaku. Tidak kusangka sekali. Tayar simpanan (spare tyre) kami hilang entah ke mana. Besi yang menutupi spare tyre kami tercabut dan ia terseret di atas jalan raya. Bunyi besi yang bergeseran di atas jalan bertar inilah bunyi yang kami dengar tadi.

Panik. Bingung. Apakah yang kami langgar tadi? Di manakah spare tyre itu. Sekeliling kami, padang pasir luas dan di sebelah kami, jalan raya yang sunyi sepi. Kami berpakat untuk mencari tayar yang hilang itu. Berbekalkan lampu suluh kecil, kami cuba mencarinya. Dua pusingan kami lakukan namun hampa. Tayar yang dicari tidak diketemui. Yang dijumpai ialah sebuah tayar lama, kayu yang merentasi jalan raya dan pelbagai serpihan tayar. Benda yang kami langggar, kami tidak menjumpainya. Mungkin ia batu, mungkin ia kayu....atau mungkin....Persoalan itu tidak mempunyai jawapan yang pasti.

Hampa. Pasrah. Kami meneruskan perjalanan ke Adelaide. Mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik ini.

Sampai di sempadan New South Wales dan Southern Australia, van kami ditahan. Seorang pakcik bertanyakan kami samada kami membawa buah-buahan dan sayur-sayuran atau tidak. Kami meng'iyakan. Seterusnya kami diarahkan memberikan kesemua buah-buahan yang kami miliki. Rupa-rupanya, buah-buahan dan sayur-sayuran tidak boleh dibawa keluar dari New South Wales. Habis semua buah yang kami bawa. Bertambahlah pengalaman pahit kami. Pelik juga memikirkan hal ini.

Setelah beberapa jam mengembara tanpa 'spare tyre' mahupun buah untuk dibawa, akhirnya kami sampai jua di Adelaide. Setibanya di sana, kami berkumpul sekali dan daripada situ kami tahu pelbagai kisah malang yang menimpa van lain. Ada sebuah van dilangggar (melanggar) seekor wombat dan alhamdulillah, van masih lagi di dalam keadaan baik. Sebuah van lagi telah membeli buah-buahan dalam sebuah plastik yang besar namun telah dirampas di sempadan. Pengembaraan yang cukup mencabar dan telah meningkatkan pengalamanku ini.

5 hari berkelana. 3 negeri direntasi. Banyak pengalaman mahupun kenangan dikutipi.


Saturday, August 06, 2005

BBQ Kiewa

Actually, I have several post to be written more on the winter trip but would like to write on this BBQ matter. Today, my house, the name is Kiewa by the way ;)...organised special BBQ since two of our housemates are leaving for good. Both of them are doing engineering and their flight ticket will be at the end of this month.

ayam-ayam yang sedia untuk diratah ;)

We arrived at the park, it was called Princes Park, on 9.00 am sharp and started to prepare the whole bbq. The fact was throughout the whole night prior to the bbq, we worked hard to marinate all those chickens and lamb meats. There were more than 250 pieces of chicken to be cut and marinated. Whoa, a bit tired after doing all those tiring job.

We invited many but only half of them could make it. There was another big event held at the same time at Albert Park by MASCA Victoria. Thus, many could not come to eat all those foods.

Throughout the whole BBQ, we chatted a lot and some unexpected thing happened. Never thought it would occur in such way but coming to think of it later, it was very funny though. Wish I could captured those moment in my camera :D

We invited most of all my batch. Altogether there should be 20 but due to some reasons, they could not come. Here the pictures of those who came. The real fact is, it is so hard to the extent of impossible to gather all twenty of us despite we went to the same lecture everyday. Wonder what is the reason behind this.....

From right: Sue, Wahyuna, Aya, Aliya, Azni, Albi, Syafirul, Me, Salami, Romi & Azhar

Attendance: 11/20 [wonder when there will be full house of Banting nih ;)]

p/s: to those who came to our BBQ, thanks for coming and sorry if the foods were too bad ;)

Friday, August 05, 2005

Lagu tema

Lagu tema Winter Trip 05

Teman Sejati

Selama ini kumencari - cari
Teman yang sejati
Buat menemani perjuangan suci

Bersyukur kini pada-Mu Ilahi
Teman yang dicari selama ini
Telah kutemui

Dengannya disisi
Perjuangan ini
Senang diharungi
Bertambah murni kasih Ilahi

Kepada-Mu Allah
Kupanjatkan doa
Agar berkekalan kasih sayang kita

Kepada-mu teman
Kupohon sokongan
Pengorbanan dan pengertian

Telah kuungkapkan segala - galanya

Kepada-Mu Allah
Kupohon restu-Mu
Agar kita kekal bersatu

Kepada-mu Teman
Teruskan perjuangan
Pengorbanan dan kesetiaan

Telah kuungkapkan segala - galanya
Itulah tandanya
Kejujuran kita

Kumencari - cari teman yang sejati
Buat menemani perjuangan suci


Jalan Dakwah

Dari barisan usrah
Dan dari umbi tarbiah
Muncullah sinaran fikrah
Islah terus meniti masa

Dari dewan selesa ke jalanan yg berhaba
Pejuang keadilan dan penjulang kebenaran
Bersama islam membina ummah
Usaha daulatkan syariah
Agar hidup penuh barakah

Di dalam sedih dan ketawa
Di dalam susah dan mewah
Tetap teguh iman dan takwa

Sehati sejiwa
Dulu kini selamanya
Walau apa yg melanda hadapi bersama

Ya Allah ya rabbi
Teguhkan iman kami
Moga tabah hati tak berbelah bagi

Berbekalkan islam membina masyarakat
Mengukuh umat insan sejagat
Setiap mehnah pastinya ada hikmah
Berbaik sangka pada yg Esa.

Rasulullah contoh ikutan
Prinsip syura jadikan amalan
Korban masa tenaga kita
Dan fikiran perkasakan maruah kita

-Alarm Me-

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Adelaide II - Mount Lofty

Persinggahan terakhir kami di bumi Adelaide ialah Mount Lofty. Ketinggiannya ialah 727 meter dan daripada puncak Mount Lofty, kami mampu melihat keseluruhan bandaraya Adelaide dan meninjau keseluruhan pelusuk lautan yang berada di hadapan kami.

Percaya atau tidak, kesemua gambar ini diambil sebelum matahari terbenam. Setengah jam sebelum maghrib. Keadaan sebenar pada waktu itu ialah matahari masih bersinar terang namun setelah mengubah beberapa setting pada kamera, inilah hasilnya. Seolah-olahnya kami berada di situ tatkala matahari terbenam ;)

Dengan mengubah 'aperture' dan 'brightness/contrast', beberapa gambar menarik berjaya dihasilkan :)

Gambar di bawah adalah gambar setelah 'setting' pada kamera diubah. Gambar terakhir adalah gambar sebelum mengubah 'setting'.

Mount Lofty, persinggahan terakhir kami untuk 'Winter Trip 05'. Dengan ini, berakhirlah sudah pengembaraan kami sejauh 3367 km merentasi 3 buah negeri di Australia selama 5 hari. Suatu pengembaraan yang cukup bermakna dan sukar dilupakan. Bakal dipahat di dalam minda buat selama-lamanya.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Adelaide I

Pancutan air

Pancutan air dari dekat

Setelah lebih daripada 20 jam mengembara merentasi benua Australia, akhirnya kami tiba jua di negeri ketiga, Southern Australia. Kami singgah di Adelaide dan menginap di kediaman pelajar Malaysia di sana. Di Adelaide, terdapat ramai pelajar kejuruteraan dan ramai di antara mereka mengambil jurusan Kejuruteraan Petroleum.

Setelah berehat secukupnya, kami dibawa pelajar Adelaide melawat beberapa tempat menarik di Adelaide. Di antaranya ialah Stesen Keretapi Adelaide, University of Adelaide dan beberapa taman yang dikelilingi oleh sebatang sungai.

Salah sebuah bangunan di University of Adelaide

Barr Smith Library, University of Adelaide

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Pengembaraan yang jauh...

Suatu tempat di New South Wales

Setelah berada sehari di Sydney, kami memulakan perjalanan ke destinasi seterusnya, Adelaide. Sydney terletak di negeri New South Wales manakala Adelaide pula terletak di negeri Southern Australia.

Walaupun negeri yang bersebelahan, untuk merentasi sebuah negeri amatlah sukar. Negeri-negeri di Australia ini bolehlah diibaratkan seperti negeri di Amerika Syarikat. Cukup luas. Sebuah negeri Australia adalah jauh lebih luas daripada Malaysia.

Pengembaraan ke Adelaide mengambil masa lebih daripada 20 jam. Jarak pengembaraan lebih daripada 2000 kilometer. Analogi ialah seumpama kita bertolak dari Perlis ke Johor dan berulang-alik ke Perlis dan patah semula ke Johor. Begitulah jauh jalan yang kami tempuhi ini.

Kami hanya singgah di dua pekan kecil, Wagga-wagga (pelik sungguh nama ia) dan Mildura.