Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Grampians National Park

Last weekend, I went to Grampian National Park. Located 260 km from Melbourne. The experience of being there is truly amazing yet tiring. Due to time limitation, we could only visited several places. Among them, Mount Stapylton and Mackenzie Fall.

There are many interesting places that we have not covered yet. The National Park itself is rather big. 167,000 ha if i'm not mistaken. Hopefully in the future, I could go there again :)

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

my thick lecture notes for this semester - oblique view Posted by Hello

Friday, September 23, 2005

satu perjuangan...

Syukur Pada Yang Esa
Rahmat PemberianNya
Persaudaraan, Keharmonian

Jalinkan Kasih Sayang
Hulurkanlah Bantuan
Kepada Yang Memerlukannya

Mari Kita Bina Satu Ummah Maju jaya
Mula Diri, Keluarga, Sahabat
Masyarakat Dan Negara

Dengan Satu Perjuangan
Satu Arah Tujuan
Di Bawah Rahmat Yang Esa

Kita Melangkah Seiringan
Satu Perjuangan

Rintangan Pasti Melanda
Jangan Undur Walau Selangkah
Teruskan Perjuangan
Hingga Ke Akhirnya
Andai Kau Gugur
Andai Kau Syahid
Kau DiredhaiNya


Monday, September 19, 2005


Today, we were introduced to a patient who has a genetic condition. She was short in stature and has several disabilities. Listening to her experience in being 'disabled' yet abled in different ways, I remembered the many verses of Quran.

The concept of blessing. Till today and this very second you read this word, you are living under the blessing of the lord of the universe. Without His blessing, we are NOTHING. The patient we saw in front of us was taken away several blessings that were given to other people. Same goes to everyone. Not all people receive the same kind of blessing. Some are given the blessing of wealth, health and even the blessing of wisdom. Some are not.

Everytime I looked around, the sight of seeing people and nature remind me the greatness of Allah and the blessing that I have. I used to have the blessing of sharp vision. I can see minute details from far away. But now, the blessing is already taken away from me. I have to use spectacle to see the world. And without my spectacles, the world seems blurry indeed. Yet, I am not complaining about the blessing that I does not have. I am grateful to Allah.

Alhamdulillah, despite I don't have the blessing of good vision, He still gave me the biggest blessing of all blessings. The blessing of Islam and Iman. Alhamdulillah.

Look around us. Take time to ponder on the greatness of islam and iman. See what have happened to the people without of these blessings.

Alhamdullillah, although my deeds are not that significant, Allah still gave me time to repent to Him. Alhamdullillah, I am still alive at this very moment to write the sentences on this blog. My time in this world, it is up to Allah to decide on that.

"Then which of the favours of your Lord deny will you deny? [55:13]"

"Has there not been over man a long period of time, when he was nothing - (not even) mentioned? [76 :001]"

To be able to see the world, to be able to breathe the air....everything point to the Creator, Allah SWT.

"Blessed is He in Whose hand is the dominion, and He is able to do all things. [67:1]"

Thursday, September 15, 2005


It is so fast. Now is already at the end of week 9. Next week, there will be 3rd test. Few weeks more, there will be final exam of this semester.

Then, after the exam...summer holiday.

Hopefully can cope with the burden of neuroscience, genetics and endocrinology...

Sunday, September 11, 2005

002.155 وَلَنَبْلُوَنَّكُمْ بِشَيْءٍ مِنَ الْخَوْفِ وَالْجُوعِ وَنَقْصٍ مِنَ الأمْوَالِ وَالأنْفُسِ وَالثَّمَرَاتِ وَبَشِّرِ الصَّابِرِينَ
002.156 الَّذِينَ إِذَا أَصَابَتْهُمْ مُصِيبَةٌ قَالُوا إِنَّا لِلَّهِ وَإِنَّا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعُونَ
002.157 أُولَئِكَ عَلَيْهِمْ صَلَوَاتٌ مِنْ رَبِّهِمْ وَرَحْمَةٌ وَأُولَئِكَ هُمُ الْمُهْتَدُونَ
002.155 Be sure we shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere,
002.156 Who say, when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah We belong, and to Him is our return":-
002.157 They are those on whom (Descend) blessings from Allah, and Mercy, and they are the ones that receive guidance.

Friday, September 09, 2005

of words...

For almost two years now, whenever we were confronted with patients telling their sad stories of their illness, we were taught to say this stereotype phrase "I'm sorry to hear that". The phrase was intended to convey our empathy towards the patient.

Practising the phrase for almost an endless times, now I think the phrase is losing its sole purpose. The phrase seems to devoid the essence of sympathy and seems to be conveying a reflex response. Just asked the simulated patients that were interviewed many times by the medical students in one day, the phrase to them is seen as exhaustive repetition by the students. No wonder the phrase lose its significance.

Now, confronting with a situation where one of my friends is facing chronic illness, I'm speechless. The phrase is not suitable anymore. No such words can help to alleviate my friend's illness. If I said I understand how my friend feels, perhaps that is not so true as if I have been experiencing the same kind of pain previously. And it is not my monye that goes out of the pocket too. No words can truly express my sympathy to my friend. A bit frustating too.

It is true what have been said in this hadith... If you (have need to) ask, ask of Allah; and if you seek help, seek help from Allah. Know that even if the Nation (or the whole community) were to gather together to benefit you with something, they would not benefit you with anything except that which Allah has already recorded for you....[Tirmidhi]

The only thing that I could write is this hadith.
“Indeed amazing are the affairs of a believer! They are all for his benefit. If he is granted ease of living he is thankful; and this is best for him. And if he is afflicted with a hardship, he perseveres; and this is best or him.” (Muslim)

"O Allah our lord! Bless my friend with the strength to cope with the illness. Grant her with the wisdom to seek the 'hikmah' beyond the illness. O Allah. Please forgive her sins and help her to recover soon. Amin"

Wednesday, September 07, 2005


Ya Allah Engkau Mengetahui bahawa hati-hati ini telah berkumpul kerana MengasihiMu, bertemu untuk mematuhi (perintah)Mu, bersatu memikul beban dakwah Mu, Hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia untuk mendaulat dan menyokong syari'at Mu,maka eratkanlah Ya Allah akan ikatannya.

Kekalkan kemesraan antara hati-hati ini. Tunjukkanlah kepada hati-hati ini akan jalan-Nya (yang sebenar). Penuhkan hati ini dengan cahaya RabbaniMu yang tidak kunjung malap. Lapangkan hati-hati ini dengan limpahan iman dan keindahan tawakkal kepadaMu.

Hidup suburkan hati-hati ini dengan ma'rifat (pengetahuan sebenar) tentang Mu...(Jika Engkau mentaqdirkan mati) maka matikanlah pemilik hati-hati ini sebagai para syuhada' dalam perjuangan agamaMu. Engkaulah sebaik-baik sandaran dan sebaik-baik penolong.

Ya Allah! Perkenankanlah permintaan ini...

Sunday, September 04, 2005

to make heart tender

An-Nu`man ibn Bashir, radhiallahu `anhu, narrated that he heard the Prophet, sallallahu `alaihi wa sallam say:
“The least torture in the Hell on the Day of Judgment is that of a man whose foot sole is laid on a live coal which causes his brain to boil just like a boiler.” [Bukhari and Muslim]

Muslim narrated in his Sahih:
“He does not think that any other person is tortured more severely than him although he is in the least torture.”[Muslim]
Abil Huraira reported Allah's Apostle (may peace be upon him) as saying:
The fire which sons of Adam burn is only one-seventieth part of the Fire of Hell. His Companions said: By Allah, even ordinary fire would have been enough (to burn people). Thereupon he said: It is sixty-nine parts in excess of (the heat of) fire in this world each of them being equivalent to their heat. [Muslim]
Narrated by Abu Huraira, Allah's Apostle said,
"The (Hell) Fire is surrounded by all kinds of desires and passions, while Paradise is surrounded by all kinds of disliked undesirable things." [Bukhari]
Narrated by Abu Huraira, Allah's Apostle said,
"If you knew that which I know, you would laugh little and weep much." [Bukhari]

Saturday, September 03, 2005


Sebenarnya hati ini cinta kepada-Mu
Sebenarnya diri ini rindu kepada-Mu

Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa cinta masih tak hadir
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa rindu belum berbunga

Sesungguhnya walau kukutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau kusiram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langitpun
Namun cinta takkan hadir
Namun rindu tak akan berbunga

Kucuba menhulurkan sebuah hadiah kepada-Mu
Tapi mungkin isinya tidak sempurna tiada seri
Kucuba menyiramnya agar tumbuh berbunga
Tapi mungkin kerana airnya tidak sesegar telaga kautsar

Sesungguhnya walau kukutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau kusiram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langitpun
Namun cinta takkan hadir
Namun rindu tak akan berbunga
Jika tidak mengharap rahmat-Mu
Jika tidak menagih simpati
Pada Mu Ya Allah

Tuhan hadiahkanlah kasih-Mu kepadaku
Tuhan kurniakanlah rinduku kepada-Mu
Moga ku tahu syukurku adalah milik-Mu